I have been doing standup for over years now.  I have been suffering from anxiety and depression for twice as long.  It has taken decades of trial and error to figure out what works for me to cope.

And I am not alone.  There is a history of comedians who have committed suicide:  Robin Williams, Freddie Prinze, Ray Combs, Charles Rocket, Richard Jeni, Brody Stevens, Michael Roof, Micke Dubois,